Thursday, June 21, 2012

Megazord

I've half written lots of long posts. I'm tired of half-writing things, so this'll be more within my attention span.


Big Question: What does it mean to be a member of the body of Christ? No seriously, what does it mean?

Romans 12:5
"so we, though many, are one body in Christ, and individually members one of another." (ESV)"so in Christ we who are many form one body, and each member belongs to all the others."
We've all heard that to be a Christian is to be a member of the Body of Christ. (If you haven't heard this, check out Romans 12, it'll elucidate wonderfully.)

I've heard us called hands and feet.

I've heard cells.

Nerves.

Livers.

Romans tells us that we all have different gifts (prophecy, teaching, giving, hospitality...) which Christ intends for us to use to His glory. But we don't all have everything, so we have to work together to get anything worthwhile done. 

Until today, I've took this to mean that I was the Blue Ranger's triceratops, and that when Christ (obviously the Red Ranger) wanted to kick some hypertrophic putty villainry, he would hit the button on his divine Morpher and I would twist my body around and plug into his t-rex at the hip and become the feet of Christ.

Which made me feel pretty cool. Until I realized that if this was true, the body of Christ would be a centipede, because there's lots of people who can be legs, and we can't just keep assigning everybody who got here late the job of being platelets just so they'll have something to do. We tried this in the American church, and all we got was a giant clot. 

In reality, (a reality which I realized this morning during time spent reflecting on Romans 12 and togetherness), the body of Christ is much, much different from this.

We're all supposed to be Christlike, yes? This is a statement well-founded in scripture and common sense. (Christ was a good guy, and good guys are good to be like.)

We're supposed to be a bunch of little Christs running around doing Christ things.

Except not all of us can walk.

This is where the verse at the top of the page comes into play. Romans 5 says (at least in the ESV), we are members of the body of Christ, and "individually members one of another." This, upon closer inspection, is a mind-bending statement. It seems to say that we are modular people.

I am not the foot of a Megazord (MegaLord?). I am your foot. But you are my hand. And he is my eye.

I am not just the foot of the body of Christ. I am your foot, and your body belongs to Christ.

Seen this way, the body of Christ is not one huge, ecclesiastic lump of stagnant flesh and unnecessary organs. It is a million mini-Christs, buzzing about God's work on borrowed wings like Dr. Frankensteins own hive. And a million hands (or antennae, or mandibles, I don't really make lots of bee analogies) make light work.

So don't spend time worrying about how you, a puny half-crippled foot, are going to move the entirety of the abstract, ineffable, lazy single body of Christ. Find one of the little bodies of Christ that needs to take a step (or receive a well-placed kick), then find another one, then another one, and THEN we'll have started doing something.

I'm tired. I'm out.

I love you, Seth

Thursday, April 5, 2012

Look at me! Look at me Look at me!

"I question anyone who doesn't ask questions of themselves." ~ Me.


"I question anyone who quotes themselves."~ What I should have said


"I question myself."~ What the above two statement implies


Big Question: Why is God a Trinity? Must He be?


Me, Myself and I


I have lots of quirks. They're why I like being me so much. I am not funny when I'm trying to be (including, possibly, right now.) I wiggle my nose to lift my glasses up, because they're too heavy for my face to support passively. I write and sing songs while I walk. 


Funny word, "I". It's only one letter long, which makes me think it's rather important. So many important words are small, but only the ones that are so important that we never think about them. "I", "a", incidental words that actually reflect some very significant things in our thoughts. "a" implies a singular of a type, and a certain interchangeability, which is core to the taxonomic structure of our entire thought process. "I" implies self as separate from the world, a very important topic which deserves more public discussion. (and which is about to get it, by golly!) Words get longer as they get less important: "be" is tremendously useful, "coulrophobia" less so. 


"Me", too. Funny word, almost a third person way to refer to myself. If asked, "who backed the car over the hydrangeas?" I would point at myself and say, "me." (Actually, I would point at my brother Pierce, but my scapegoating is another point entirely.) "Me" means "him" when "him" is "I". 


It's funny to think about ones self from the outside. Can you do this? Try, for a second. Find a mirror, then try to convince yourself that the person you see is not you. (I don't actually think you can, but I'm laughing at the thought of you trying.) 


But we do.


We call this process "self-awareness." 



γνῶθι σαυτόν (Know Thyself)



Self-awareness is how I realize I have quirks, how I realize my quirks are different from other quirks and uncommon. Simply put, self-awareness is the ability to observe the thoughts transpiring in ones own mind. I am self-aware because I can know what I am thinking, that I am thinking. Moreover, I can know that I'm thinking about myself thinking about myself thinking. 


(Note: Self-awareness is not Elf-awareness, which is the ability of every American college student to memorize seasonal Will Ferrell movies between October and January)


Self-awareness is interesting because in no other situation do we have the ability to observe a system so completely. If something goes on in our head, we can know it. We can know our conscious thoughts and, with some introspection and thought to our actions and reactions, can deduce our subconscious thoughts as well. Ideally, we might be able to know everything that goes on in our head (or wherever it is that thoughts are actually going on. I say my head because that's where I see everything from.)


Being aware of our self-awareness is inherent in being aware of our awareness. If we can think about what we think, surely we can think about this thought as well. If you're having trouble keeping all the thoughts and selves straight, feel free to skip ahead to the diagram later.


Why Three?



And now we set our sights on things above. Christian doctrine has a doctrine which is not quite paralleled in any other religion (meaning that the doctrines eventually collide, a rather violent occurrence between doctrines.) It is disputed by some solely upon its seeming self-inconsistency, and defended by most on the grounds that, "we aren't meant to understand." I am referring, of course, to the doctrine of the Trinity. (Why was it so obvious? I said it right at the beginning, in huge font. Maybe you should read for comprehension.) 


Some religions claim it gives us too few gods.


Some claim it gives us too many.


Some claim it makes us too rational, trying to number God.


Some claim it makes us irrational when we can't quite.


Everybody seems to take issue with it except those to whom is is of greatest concern, and those seem to be content with glossing over it as a paradox.


Notice I said paradox, not contradiction. A paradox differs from a contradiction the same way "almost" differs from "barely". "I almost got bitten by a ravenous squid" is quite different from "I barely got bitten by a ravenous squid": they both imply a significant interaction with a ravenous squid, but in one the squid gets you, and in the other it doesn't. A paradox is the one the squid just barely misses you, and in a contradiction, you end up as squid poop.


G K Chesterton, my most favoritest author, was known as the Prince of Paradox, and for good reason. Everything he wrote was chock full of paradox, for he viewed it as an incredible opportunity. As a physicist learns about the physical world by breaking it down into bits and smashing them together, so Chesterton broke his worldview apart into bits and threw them at each other until some almost collided, and from the ensuing eruption he learned more about them. Concerning knowledge, he said 
"When we know something we bring it down to the level of our intelligence."
The nature of God is probably beyond our comprehension, it is true. But some profound things can be learned by exploring the paradoxes given to us concerning His nature. Like this one.


Where we get off



Okay, so there's this paradox: Christians claim God is three people in one essence, or three natures in one mind, or something of the sort. Why?

First things first: In Genesis 1, when God says:
"And God said, Let us make man in our image"
He did actually say it like that. He also shows up as three persons in several places in scripture, including Matthew 3:16 (at Jesus' baptism) and Hebrews 2:3-4, where each of His parts are referenced as performing separate acts. 


So He's separate. How is He one? Easy: Deuteronomy 6:4, the Shemah. It refers to God as elohiym (the plural form from Genesis), and says He is "one" (echad, meaning one or only). That's the paradox in a sentence.


If you'd like more sources, (as well as some excellent thought on the subject,) Matt Perman, of Desiring God ministries, has more detailed explanations of the origin of the doctrine in this article. I'll let his words speak for me to fill in the details, but suffice to say, God is three persons in one essence, and this seems confusing.


Why is it confusing? Because we are one person in one essence, and we don't see how it could be otherwise.


Or might we?


Me, Myself and Him



So now we return to self-awareness. How? Well, we know how we are by our self-awareness, and because Scripture tells us that God made us in his(their?) image, we ought to be able to learn things about God by looking at ourselves. We know things of God's relationship with us when we are fathers and mothers, husbands and wives. We know something of what God feels when someone sins against us, or fails to trust us. In this case, I believe we can learn by introspecting upon our introspection.


I will use a diagram to describe what I'm aiming at. Here it is.
First off, an action. In any action, there are three parts: the subject, the action and the object. Change any one of these things, and the action changes. For example, an apple falling is different from an orange falling. You could compare the two, but I hear it's hard. 


Second, observation happens on actions. I don't observe an apple, but an apple falling, an apple being eaten, an apple just sitting there and existing. To observe an apple would require me to remove the apple from all external things (like the light being reflected from it), which I can't do. I can only observe the apple as it interacts with other things. And so, in a way, I can observe not objects, but actions on objects.


In the diagram, the first action is an apple falling: Subject: apple. Action: falling. Object: I'm not that good at grammar. 


The first arrow represents a first observation: my observing (or being aware of) an apple falling. Subject: me. Action: being aware of. Object: the apple falling (notice that the object is not only the apple, but its falling.) 


Now it gets confusing. The second arrow represents myself observing myself observing the apple falling. Subject: me. Action: me. Object: me observing the apple falling. You see how this is one level up, but the object still involves the apple. 


But we must go deeper! The third arrow represents myself observing myself observing myself. Subject: myself. Action: observing. Object: myself observing myself observing the apple. I conjecture that one could remove "the apple" from the object, and all the associated thoughts would remain unchanged. When I think about myself thinking about myself thinking about an apple, the apple doesn't factor into the thought at all, that is, the subject, action and object are all fully contained in myself.


This means that if I went back further, say to( myself observing )^4 (sorry for the math, it was just getting too long to type), the action would be EXACTLY THE SAME. The subject, object and action would be identical, and so it would not be a new action. 


Now think about how this feels. When we think about ourselves thinking, it, in a way, feels like we are looking at ourselves objectively, no? We are somehow an outside observer in ourself. In fact, we can easily imagine a conversation within ourselves in this way:


"Man, I'm angry at that jerk for backing over my hydrangeas."
"Why are you angry at him? There was a piano falling at his car."
"I know it's irrational, but my hydrangeas, man! Don't you feel anything?"


I think we can all acknowledge that, at some time or another, we have had such thoughts, where we take both sides of an argument about ourselves, somehow step back and observe what we're doing objectively, removed from our passions to more reasonable location. Some may have even physically felt the sensation, akin to an out-of-body experience, where you can hear yourself talking, you know what you're saying but you yourself are listening as if in third person. I certainly have.


That is taking way too long. So what?



Okay, you're right. That took forever, but I suppose forays into our own mind should be expected to take a while. When you boil it down, you end up with this:

1. A self-aware being can observe itself

2. This being, when observing itself, can have two persons in one person in a paradoxical way

3. There are, at most, three persons present in a self-aware person when its self-awareness is fully exercised.

When we are self-aware, we only catch glimpses of ourselves, and it's difficult to form a full picture of us. I'm not sure why this is, but I'm safe in saying that nobody's perfect, so that probably has something to do with it. So we are multiple persons in fits and spasms, and those persons have a fleeting existence.

Now: assume God is a perfect being, and is self-aware. Obviously, God would have to be perfectly self-aware at all times, and therefore would always be three people in one person.

A trinity.

Interesting?

But is this reason completely removed from Scripture? I don't think so. Hebrews 1:3 calls Christ the "exact imprint" of the nature of God. I have heard it said by some philosopher (can't remember who... do you know?) that Jesus is the self-image of God, or how He sees himself. Since he is perfectly self-aware, this would make Christ the exact image of God in spirit. 1 Corinthians 2:11 says, " So also no one comprehends the thoughts of God except the Spirit of God," and says that the Spirit of God searches out His mind. This sounds more than vaguely similar to the previous conclusion. 


So we see that this bizarre line of logic actually does line up with Scripture. But what does it mean for us?

One thing it does is emphasize the equal divinity and personhood of the Holy Spirit. Christians often say, "I have the Holy Spirit in me" like he was some kind of prosthetic, or more of a power than a person. But He is not. He is God, coequal with the Father and the Son, and here with us as a helper, not just in the sense of a crutch to lean on but a person to support us. In my experience, the more aware of this I am, the more aware of everything I am, including my own sin and God.

The most apparent thing that it shows is that the doctrine of the Trinity is not contradictory, but paradoxical, that God must be a Trinity if He is indeed perfect. 

I am fascinated that reason and Scripture line up so well every time I see it happen. It's quite awesome, in the breathtaking sense, and it greatly magnifies God. It's incredible when we are able to look at God's creation (including our own minds) and reason something about Him.

But as Blaise Pascal said, 
"Reason’s last step is the recognition that there are an infinite number of things which are beyond it."
Don't try too hard to understand God. There may be a creative analogy here, a useful philosophy there, but if you try to wrap your mind entirely around someone so large as He, you'll probably break your mind. And a good mind is hard to fix.


Sincerely,


Seth

P.S.: I recognize that someone might take issue with the statement that every step back in the chain of self-observation beyond the third is identical, since the object could be always said to be "myself observing.....myself observing an apple", which would be different if the fruit were replaced. I would ask in response, "Where in Scripture does it limit God to only three persons?" They are all that is listed, but I see no reason why only three are necessarily contained in this list. Possibly the Holy Spirit is of innumerable multiplicity. Who knows. Point being, I don't think there's a danger to the Trinity if MORE are possible, only if multiple are impossible.

Whittling a Worldview

Welcome Mat



Hi! Welcome to my head. 


I hope you find it welcoming. I try to allow as many people in as want in, but even I am almost constantly lost, so if you've ever rung my doorbell and left my stoop impatiently without a response, that was probably why. I heard you, but was lost in the maze of my medulla or fighting dragons in the far-away reaches of my brainstem, and as such was indisposed.


But I'm here now, come on in!


Please wipe your feet first, and take off your shoes if you don't mind.


And pardon the clutter.


This blog is kind of like a Goodwill store: the stuff I put here is useable, but I'm tired of having it in my house, so I'm going to give it to somebody else to love. Maybe you'll see something you like, in which case feel free to take it. Maybe not. 


I figured the first thing I ought to do, however, is describe my overarching picture on life, that is, my wordview. And, of course, my philosophy on worldviews would be a particularly useful thing to know if I am do that, and if you are to integrate any of this "found art" into your particular mind's decor. No sense in trying to combine our pictures of the world if we paint differently. 


Sooo... here's how most of these are going to work. I'm going to ask a big question for you to chew on while I pontificate. Then I'll stop, and hope that the question hasn't gone all Bazooka Joe on you and lost its flavor. If you appreciate skylights, consider this a way to break a new hole in your roof to see the sky through. But now, on to the


Big Question: How ought one to shape a worldview which properly includes all the things in the world, and nothing outside it?



This, as I mentioned before, is of overarching importance when discussing any worldviews: how does one come to have one? How are you sure you're right, and not only by the things you've let in, but that it includes "the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth"? 

There's two ways to build a worldview, but before that, I'd like to tell a story about middle school children playing with mud and fire.


The Mermaid and the Rhinocerous



Bruce and Janet both loved art class. Every day, for fifth period, they would rush to the dirtiest classroom in their school and do whatever they wanted, because their teacher was an artist, and this is how true artists teach apparently. For the sake of the story, at least. 

One day, their teacher told them they would be sculpting with clay. The children were very excited, because clay is messy and easy to ball up and throw. She gave them each a lump of red-brown clay, and sat in the back of the room taking cover behind a book which proclaimed the beauty of the similarities between humans and apes, which was in fact why she was taking cover behind it.

Janet began sculpting first. She wanted to make a mermaid, so she made her ball longer and thinner, and flattened one end and pulled some arms out and laid them just right, then took a piece of floss and a toothpick and began to shave away bits and pieces until first a tail was showing, then a body, then hands and arms, then a pretty head with long, flowing hair.

Bruce wanted to make a rhinocerous. Bruce broke off some balls and flattened them for his feet, then he made tubes for his legs, then he made a bigger ball and covered it with sheets he ripped up to make the big, strong armored body of the rhinocerous. Then he made the head, a big ball with littler ones smushed into it for eyes, and ears, and of course a giant horn right in the middle of its big, ugly face.

The time came to put their clay in the kiln, and the mermaid and the rhinocerous were right next to each other. The oven grew hot, and the mermaid was tanning but the rhino was uncomfortable. There were little pains all over, like gas all over his body. Suddenly, a crack was heard, and the rhino's horn popped off. Then the oven turned into a blast zone, with parts of the rhinocerous flying everywhere and bouncing of the other sculptures and the oven. 

You see, Bruce had made his rhino from many little pieces, and smushed them all together very tight, but they didn't fit perfectly. Little bubbles had gotten trapped inside, between the pieces, and when the bubbles got hot, the grew and cracked the poor rhinocerous. Janet, however, had started from a large lump and carved away everything that didn't look like a mermaid, and that mermaid is sitting on her mother's mantlepiece even still. Theoretically.

Sculpting Substance



There are two ways to make a worldview, just like there are two ways to sculpt a rhinocerous: make a bunch of tiny pieces a larger thing, or sculpt a very large thing into a smaller thing. These two things offer very different perspectives on the pursuit of knowledge, and the end in very similar ways to the different sculptures.

Most of the modern world subscribes to the first way, of amalgamating a large number of small facts. They do this because they see this as being what science does, and everybody wants to seem scientific. They see science making great discoveries, and assume that this is a new fact that they should stick onto their worldview. They do it, but often when they are tried by fire, these facts pop off as the interference between them becomes apparent.

Science is, in fact, just the opposite. How? I think the statement that "Science can never prove anything" will suffice. Science can certainly disprove things: some Greek guy proved that the earth was not flat using two wells and the way shadows fell in them. (Granted, some people still disagree, but most accept this.) Michelson and Morely proved that the concept of an ether in which light was simply a disturbance was false as it stood.

How does science disprove things? Easy: if the world is a certain way, it must have certain properties which act a certain way in certain situations. If the earth is flat, the shadows should fall in certain directions at certain times of day. If light travels like waves in water, then it should travel slower relative to us in the direction in which we are moving relative to it. 

Science takes these statements, and tests them. If they do not match up to reality, that means that the world is not that certain way. It may be close, but any revised reality cannot have the property which the world was proven not to have in this experiment. 

But how can science prove things? Easy: it can't. If the world doesn't work that certain way, the view is false. But if the world does work that certain way, that means that any number of things could be true, so long as they predict this. Notice that the Greek guy (honestly don't remember his name) didn't prove the world was a sphere. It could have been cylindrical, or hyperbolic, or any other number of shapes. It just for sure wasn't flat. Michelson and Morely didn't prove what light was, in fact we still don't know what it is. All we know is it doesn't act like a wave in water, so it's not something like that.


The Way We Whittle



But what does this all have to do with clay? The two worldviews are exactly like clay: either you assemble your view of truth from small bits of fact, or you carve your view of truth out of all possible things that there are. 

To restate that, you either believe everything is false until it's shown to be true, or you believe everything true until it's shown to be false.

I prefer the latter, and I believe it is a much more solid, reliable way to find out what's true.

The assembled worldview is small. It contains only the things that the sculptor can lift and put his hands on. It cannot contain things too heavy for the sculptor, or things which extend beyond the range of his vision. More concretely, it only includes things science can prove. That is to say, it really includes nothing.

The whittled worldview, however, is vast and expansive. It includes everything, except the tiny nick that science has disproved in the tiny corner science can even touch. In fact, it is so large that other tools are required to sculpt it, weak tools like philosophy or powerful tools like the Holy Bible, which deal with things science is powerless to prune. 

The whittled worldview is not of manageable size, but a worldview of manageable size will be managed by everybody there is. A massive worldview dwarfs planets and galaxies, and stands very firm when someone tries to push it, because there is nothing else to push against. Not even Archimedes with his long stick and his place to stand could move it, because by definition there is no other place to stand: it includes all things except the things which aren't things, that have been disproven.


Carving a Colossal Catechism



I want you to embrace and enjoy this worldview, the one so large that its limits cannot be seen. The benefits are vast, including the benefit of the doubt. The assembled worldview cannot give this, because it only includes things beyond the shadow of doubt, which is such an overwhelming shadow with so small a torch as ours that it renders this a tiny plane indeed.  The assembled worldview doubts everything, and so is intellectually bound by the strength of its own mind to sit amidst the things it knows until it goes insane.

The carved worldview doubts nothing but what is disproved, and gives credence to all statements until they are in opposition to truth. And this means that this worldview not only can be more accepting of people and their ideas, but also is free to pursue any region of thought without fear of pain. It's very hard to fall off an edgeless world. 

That said, one must remove the parts of the worldview which are demonstrably false. No view which is shown to be false need be even considered. It is not tolerant of falsehood, of fallacious ideas, but of the people who hold them, people who can be neither true nor false. As GK Chesterton (whom I will quote almost every post, I'm sure) said, 
"Merely having an open mind is nothing. The object of opening the mind, as of opening the mouth, is to shut it again on something solid"
A worldview including the whole world is necessarily solid, the most solid thing there is, because there is nothing else but vapors.

And so it is of overwhelming importance that you embrace this type of worldview. We can't get anywhere doubting everything. Skepticism, insofar as it is the judging of everything we hear, is quite valid, but the Skeptic, who doubts everything he hears, can never really learn anything. 


Don't be a rhinocerous. His horn will pop off, and he'll explode under his own internal pressures. Be a mermaid, beautiful and humble and carved piece by patient piece from a much larger lump. You'll know what you don't have, and won't miss it.